I like..

I like the way you dance,
I like the way you teach,
I like the way you talk,

I just like the way you are!

But I do feel that it is fading away..
which is actually a good thing.

IKEA

Waking up with the thought that today will be a nice day. I do not have to go to school=] It will be a day with the family, going to the Ikea and makro =D
When we were leaving the house, I saw my mobile pfone on the table.
Standing there at the door, looking at my phone. Thinking...should I take you with me? or should I just leave you at home? ..doubting...but yet I decided to take it with me.
It was just for seconds but it felt like minutes=S
feeling excited is what I did, I alway like to go to the IKEA. But first we had to eat lunch=D I had some delicious applepie!
walking around, looking at furnitures, flowers etc:D suddenly I want to call my friend, but...Demn Where is my phone?!! At that moment I realised that I was lying on a bed with my little sister!! I ran back but did not see it=[ I walked the whole route back to the start but no...It is gone-_-
shittt now I will have to tell my dad-_- he is going to be pissed><

Ofcourse I called my own phone but....that person who found my phone...turned it off..so I knew that thát person will not bring it back-_-

I was thinking: WHY did I took my phone with me! WHY did I not just left the pfone on the table?! It felt like a missed sign, it felt like I could have had my phone if I just took the sign>< XD
It is not even fair! this month I found two mobile phones and each time I went looking for the owner and returned it! why did nobody look for me and return my phone?><

Anyway it is just gone-_- luckily I am going to Korea soon so I can buy a new one there!


ps. I was not yet ready to, delete the memories we shared.
But I guess it is meant to be. It is just meant to be for me to forget and delete those memories.
It is ok.

18-12-"09

YEAAAJJJ finally exams are over!!:D
we had to celebrate it with some pie xD


Ps. some other pictures :
hahah had a great time XD

Because of You

너 때문에 많이도 울었어
너 때문에 많이도 웃었어
너 때문에 사랑을 믿었어
너 때문에 너 때문에 모두 다 잃었어
정말 답답답해 갑갑갑해 막막막해 너 없는 세상이
내 말을 씹어놓고 자존심 짓밟아놓고
내 맘을 찢어놓고 왜 나를 떠나가

SO much to do!

still got 8 weeks to go!!
but I got SO much to do><
need more time!! upcoming weeks..will be hard><
STUDY STUDY STUDY

to do:
-5 exams
-2 projects
-Apply for CJ house Korea
-VISA
-Spend time with family and friends
-Talk to ...
and a lot more><

one year

It has been exactly one year,
The day I got to know you.
One year later we turned into strangers.
It's weird that you can lose somebody that easily.

hmm-_-

Think about the future! is what she told me.

Is it just because I am scared to fall again, like I did before?
or also because you are still here?

I do not feel like I want to go for it anymore...
It..might not be worth it!

How come I find it interesting? I am confused..I am not supposed to feel like this.
At least not yet.

Charity Event 6-11-09

I still want to thank everybody who came to our charity party!
because of all my beloved friends XD I think we will be able to pass this course:D

I did not think that it would be such a succes=] Being nerves, stressed, sick of everything that day before the party started! but luckily everything went well....
ahum..not everything!
How can people be so evil/stupid/pathetic to steal money or whatever at a charity event!!!
Then you must at such a low stage...-_- it is just urg odueagsofue!

Anyway though it was still a succes beacause people actually told me that they liked the party and that it was a great succes:D:D

The dancers were nice and the battle too! it was a pity that not everybody participated but that was your own choice, Congratzz to Ton! He was really awesome! like always:P
eventually we collected 1300,- Euro's!!! yeeeyyy :D:D

Btw. Even though you already went home, but when I had "nowhere" to go, you were there for me:D I am grateful to have you as one of my dearest friends:D
and ehh breakfast was strange, but niceXD

ps. X.! thank you for helping us=]
Thanks everyone!!:D



I saw you over there...

hmm weird

It has been a while...
I know/feel that it does not matter to me, not anymore
But still I felt weird..

made up my mind

Of to Korea between 29-01-2010 and 05-02-2010:D

nice picturesXD

The last past days/weeks I have been spending quite a lot of time with this friend,
she is cheerful, crazy, stupid , pretty etc.
I want to post some pictures of our memories:D


pictures 2morrow

...

Regret..

letter of MOTIVATION!!

what must I write??fkldnhgjhd

LALalala

she wanted to talk,
whether to believe or not?
It made me realise that I do not care a lot about it anymore=D

we will see what will happen in the future,
time will tell...

20 -10-09

firstt happy 21st Bday to my sissss:D:D

what a night!! ><
he said: this is the true you, now I know how much...

I listend to what you said,
I understand and I know=]
This is it!:D

16 October 2009

Another month passed by..
yet there are times that I feel the same..

It is getting better..

still three months to go!

Study time

I need to study! need to study! need to study!!
sdjfksfjgf
lets concentrate on school:D><

Without a heart<3

indeed do not think..
lets start the love game..:D

why did I

Why did I do that?
I think the most stupid thing I did was trusting you...
but nvm I do not want to care about it anymore..

All I think now..is that it was all fake..

I thought you were different...

..

I am nervous for what might happen tomorrow.....
how come =s

I want to..

....I want to go to DISNEYLAND Parisssss

either during Halloween or Christmas!!!

jajajajajajaaa

uagfiueag

I think ..it is not only because of you but also because of the shock xD
that is why I reacted like that o.0 and felt like dsguifedyusgf ><

btw..thank you S. for being there today and for training with me:D
hahah I did not know you can breakdance like that =D wauww hihi

LET go!

I hate this!
I know I must, I need, I should!!jkdsgfkja

but...

HOE dan

OMG phone bill: €126,20
HOW is that possible?

o.0

ps. I figured it out...its because of YOU fihweifola f ><

nohhhhhhh

I woke up..I could not even open my eye!!dhjsfag

A stupid mosquito bite on my eye !

Sdkhfidghdfoih><

Dreams

I have this friend..
She loves to talk about dreams, about the meaning of those dreams..
I never really thought about my dreams..
what they might mean..

Dreams are a series of images, ideas, emotions, and sensations occurring in the mind during certain stages of sleep.The content and purpose of dreams are not fully understood..

I had this dream...
For the first time it made me think...thinking what could it mean?
I immediatly thought of my friend, and so I did a research on what my dream might mean..

Do I long for what happend in my dream? Do I long for it THAT much??
maybe....

Pain
To dream that you are in pain, signifies that you are being too hard on yourself with regards to a situation that was out of your control
Love
To dream of love of being in love, suggests intense feelings carried over from a waking relationship. It implies happiness and contentment with what you have and where you are in life. On the other hand, you may not be getting enough love in your daily life. We naturally long for the sense to belong and to be accepted

*I wish it could be*

18 & 19 september

It was suchhh a long day o.0
It started on friday the 18th of september XD
I had my last moment "small" bday party:D
Did not prepare it at all!! >< (btw. thanks HJW, LEO, Alex for helping)

Jeey we bought a lot of food and we made sushi<3

And then my lovely friends came....busyy :D I liked=] felt really happy=D
I got lots of nicee presentss:D:D hihi , Though I said they did not need to buy me a present!!

After the whole evening/morning talking laughing, We all felt really tired and went to look for a bed to sleep in ..
and WEOOO we were with 6 people in my room o.0
5 people sleeping in my bed XD haha ...sammy really liked "lepeltjes" xD (something like that)
And then we played a game..everybody in my room must say something about <3 I liked it when I woke up, it felt like camp=]
and then they left...

I thank everybody for coming all the way to Wageningen!! even though some did not stay for a long time it meant a LOT to me=D (some even arrived at 2 am in the night)
I liked allll the presents and bday cards I got!!!:D

thankkk youuuu for the nice day(s)<3

p.s why?? I thought that it was over...that I could handle it..I hate it when I break my promisses..but no worries...:D

gueiegfwSTOPsahdkd

Each time I feel like that??

Stop it!!

9/11

We all know 9/11, It might have been a long time ago..
but still for lots of people it is a day that they all want to forget...

As for me..the 11th of September is my birthday=]
Each year people say...ohh 9/11..haha you are celebrating your birthday while others are crying for their lost ones..
Yes I know...It is a sad day..

Today was the first time that I did not feel that happy on my birthday..
I do not know why...well maybe I do know why but I am just denying it.

But I am glad that I could spent my day with you guys<3

THANKS EVERYBODY for all the congratzz=D

wondering...how can one person have such an impact on somebody else...

10-09-09

The last day of my 18th year!!
Today I had lots of bad luck>< 
But it is gonna be ok=]

Because...I told myself I will settle everything before I turn 19=]
It has been a great yearrr:D
A year with a lot of ups and with a few downs.
All the ups... I will hold them with me, in my memories:D as for the bad stuff...
I will forget them...because time heals.

Thanks everybody for this amazinggg year:D

ennehh ...I miss you

My Sweet memories<3

my long lost friend xD

hehe today.. After working in Amsterdam I met with my old friend=]
yeah,,,I was happy to see him because...talking to him makes me feel relieved... I do not know why...but everytime it is just like that. 

I have not seen him for like monthsss, ,seriously..how come???
before.... we met like every week once or twice o.0
We talked a lot about everything:about the present..(stupid issues) and the past <3
well I miss those times...I have to go back to the old me:D:D and yesss I will..from now on..

from now on...everything that happend..I will (try) to leave it there,,,there in the past..
today was the last time...No more tearssss

Btw I love sitting in the rain...watching everybody running to escape from the crying sky=]Next time I will sit there again,that crazy spot xD everybody was wondering why we sat thereXD But well I like it...

and I will buy that outfit we saw...even though no money xD

hihi 
loser S. tai pie jwz xD

<3

Burn the picture that held us
Erase memories I kept
I have to get up and leave
I know it so well
But why I fall back?

Falling rain 
Won’t let me see what’s in front of me
Raging wind
Won’t let me take even one step
As if I was standing at the edge of a cliff
I’m shaking in fear
With my small hands together
I pray for one thing only
Come back to me

Even tears do not come out anymore
I don’t have the strength to even cry
That our breakup is not a dream
I know so well
But why do I wish to wake up?

Falling rain 
Won’t let me see what’s in front of me
Raging wind
Won’t let me take even one step
As if I was standing at the edge of a cliff
I’m shaking in fear
With my small hands together
I pray for one thing only

My aching heart and deep scars
They all hate you
Even if I burn photos and erase memories
I can’t forget you

Falling rain 
Won’t let me see what’s in front of me
Raging wind
Won’t let me take even one step
As if I was standing at the edge of a cliff
I’m shaking in fear
With my small hands together
I pray for one thing only
Come back to me

Come back to me

<3 Elliott Yamin

Woww I truly loveeee this song:D

Don’t be afraid to fall in love 
cause I don't believe in giving up 
Please give me a chance to earn your trust 
Cause I know I can be everythin' that you need 
Don’t be afraid to fall in love 
And don’t ever say that is just too much 
Cause you never know I could be the one 
Girl we’re not all the same, babe don’t be afraid to love 

If you try 
Its not a waste of time 
You will find 
That love is what you need in your life 
Just let it go 
Nobody's gonna hurt you 
Don’t say no 
Tell me what I need to do

16th of the month

why the 16th of the month??
It has been exactly one month..
The 16th, when it all started and today the 16th where it all ended..
seriously it is not my lucky number at alll xD

I guess I was nerves I just could not sleep!! whatever I did XD I even got up at 4 am to eat something...but no! Still I could not sleep><

As bad as today was,
The chapter is officially starting to close,
I close it in my heart,
Time will tell how I feel,
For me it still was real....

Knowing that the upcoming time will be hard,
Also a new chapter will start,I will start to let you go from my heart...

Somebody said: It is not something that comes that easily, you have to work for it.
I agree, I guess it was not good enough to work for it.

The good thing of this day is, that I received the PRETTIEST present ever=]

Best Friends Last Forever..
Chell, Po, Vonn, Poei<3

NO TEARSSSSS=D
I hope..

If you want me to stay

NICEEEE

Friendship

"Friendship, as understood here, is a distinctively personal relationship that is grounded in a concern on the part of each friend for the welfare of the other, for the other's sake, and that involves some degree of intimacy. As such, friendship is undoubtedly central to our lives, in part because the special concern we have for our friends must have a place within a broader set of concerns, including moral concerns, and in part because our friends can help shape who we are as persons.

Helm, Bennett (2005) Friendship, The Stanford Encyclopedia of Philosophy

She...

We met by chance and turned into friends,
This friendship started on August 2007
Did I know that she would be the one I can lean on?
No, I did not even imagine xD
Even our first sight of each other was not that brilliant.
I did not even chose for the empty seat next to her. That glance of her.. scared me xD
But now two years later, She is the one who is always next to me.
She will always fill the empty seat next to me. 
Whenever I need her, she is ready to help me.
She is the one I can trust, the one who knows.(hihi) with her I feel free:D
Though there was a time I thought I lost you, but luckily…you are back.

Not only your friendship, because of you I met others.                                                             Others who are precious too.

I believe a lot started with you.
                                                                                                  <3                                                         

you told me

This day, you told me that it felt great=D
you told me that you really want it=]
So I believe and give my very first shot=D
<3

wauww

I feel so much better XD
needed your shoulder and now I feel happy and relieved=]

acting like a bai chi XD

ps. Thanks Xenia& HeJie for the sketchbook=]<3

Hurry!!

Yoshi, Yashi, Lam!!

where are you! come back SOON!!!!!!!

I need...

:(

14 July 2009...

Today was one of those memorable days to me..

I really want to close this chapter immediately! but can I do that?

Today..again, those emotions..why are they bothering me?           they actually surprised me a bit..
A. said:  Stop crying, you are drying yourself out xD

She said:
je hebt misschien iemand die je lief hebt verloren,
maar je echte vrienden laten je niet in de steek, I love you!

작별 내 첫 사랑....

ps. Alex T. &Chell Thank you for today. For being there...

Emotions..

Emotions are our feelings. Literally. We feel them in our bodies as tingles, hot spots and muscular tension. But... what are they? I would really like to know.. what happens inside us when our "feelings are hurt" or when we are ready to "jump for joy"?
Feelings...You learn from them...they are powerful and meaningful.

Why?
I wonder why..
Lately I have been too emotional, cried that much, smiled that often, mad that quick.
I feel like...my head is exploding!!! bammmm!@!

Honestly I think it is because of "THAT" week,
that week.. I learned a lot from, I felt a lot from, I enjoyed a lot from!
Because of that week, I started to think...
about..myself, others, beliefs, love, hate..
Here I am
Looking for the answers to my own questions..

First blog..

Why did I started a blog??
I don't know...suddenly I just wanted to...