STOP

STOP IT!!!
stupid nervous feeling! why isnt it going away???=[

Now and back then

After four months in Korea,
I seriously realise that a lot of things in the Netherlands are so meaningless to me,
so fake, so boring, so not useful...
Its just that I have been thinking about what I want, What I want to achieve in the future! what I like and what is important to me...

I have to start now! start doing what I want to do and not what I think I should do because it might be better for me that way,..or what my family wants me to do...
now its time for ME=]

After talking to a friend of mine..who was in the same game...I realised that everthing was sooo stupid! XD hahah although its already nothing to me...I still feel like....never want to see them..just because its not important XD

hehe

But ok I think im getting more depressed every single day..because I know I might be going home soon...
eventhough im not ready yet...I will not be sad because I know that..
I WILL BE BACK!
<3

바보!!! Home-Micheal Buble!
just for you!=D

happy

Spending the whole night with you playing the guitar was soooo fun!!
ok we should do that more often...but then not the WHOLE nightXD
cause it makes me feel like im dead now XD no energy...at allXD

I noticed that the skin on the top of my fingers are getting hard><
i dont like ...but I cant help itXD

lallalaallalala
hihi

When you said that I can play on your guitar whenever I want ..I somehow was sooo happy=]

...?

I kinda miss you?

14-01-2010

This time it was different then all the other times from before,
I liked the fact that everything was organised.
I felt that I did not had to worry because it was all safe=]

It was the first time since..
and I liked it=]
Thank you for today!

=]

p.s Pasta e Basta I like<3

I like..

I like the way you dance,
I like the way you teach,
I like the way you talk,

I just like the way you are!

But I do feel that it is fading away..
which is actually a good thing.

IKEA

Waking up with the thought that today will be a nice day. I do not have to go to school=] It will be a day with the family, going to the Ikea and makro =D
When we were leaving the house, I saw my mobile pfone on the table.
Standing there at the door, looking at my phone. Thinking...should I take you with me? or should I just leave you at home? ..doubting...but yet I decided to take it with me.
It was just for seconds but it felt like minutes=S
feeling excited is what I did, I alway like to go to the IKEA. But first we had to eat lunch=D I had some delicious applepie!
walking around, looking at furnitures, flowers etc:D suddenly I want to call my friend, but...Demn Where is my phone?!! At that moment I realised that I was lying on a bed with my little sister!! I ran back but did not see it=[ I walked the whole route back to the start but no...It is gone-_-
shittt now I will have to tell my dad-_- he is going to be pissed><

Ofcourse I called my own phone but....that person who found my phone...turned it off..so I knew that thát person will not bring it back-_-

I was thinking: WHY did I took my phone with me! WHY did I not just left the pfone on the table?! It felt like a missed sign, it felt like I could have had my phone if I just took the sign>< XD
It is not even fair! this month I found two mobile phones and each time I went looking for the owner and returned it! why did nobody look for me and return my phone?><

Anyway it is just gone-_- luckily I am going to Korea soon so I can buy a new one there!


ps. I was not yet ready to, delete the memories we shared.
But I guess it is meant to be. It is just meant to be for me to forget and delete those memories.
It is ok.